ความโกรธไม่เคยเป็นหอคอย แต่เป็นคุณ

people watch me climb and ask how im not throwing my phone. i used to. years back i was the guy screaming at the wraparound near the top, falling, screaming louder, then falling worse because now im tilted and my inputs are garbage. the rage was making me lose. so i just stopped. not as some mind trick, i genuinely decided anger is a choice and i opted out. now when i fall i feel nothing, i just note which jump got me, the ice ledge, the spinner, the truss transition, and i file it away for the next attempt. a fall isnt a punishment, its data. last night i loaded into a genuinely evil tower, the kind where every section stacks against you, spinning platform into a no grip ice run into a wraparound with nothing under it. fell maybe thirty times. felt calm the whole way. run thirty one my hands already knew every section from all that failing and it just flowed, clean to the top. no rage, no checkpoint, no luck. thats the part nobody wants to hear. skill issue is real, and the first skill is refusing to let the game make you angry